Temps are staying high... hopes are up...

So, apparently I really ovulated. 5 DPO, my temperature is still rising, and now I have a Early Pregnancy Predictor with a green 35 on it. It doesn't mean I have a 35% chance of being pregnant, just that it matches the signs in other women's charts. Complicated, I don't need to get the technical part, I'm happy with just the results. And if they make a colorful chart, all the better. It even looks pretty. But the wait until March 13th, when I'm supposed to test, is going to be excruciating. And considering the fact that when I was pregnant with L, the pregnancy tests kept coming back negative until week six of the pregnancy... I may even be up for a longer wait. I need to do something to take my attention from this. I'll go back to yoga next week. Or maybe swimming would be a better idea... Some kind of physical activity that takes my mind out of chart world... And I have decided that from next week on, I'm going to set aside some time of my week to research about VBAC. And to post whatever I found here. Ina May, there I go...

Maybe this month?

According to my chart, I ovulated on the 22nd, which means I'm on 3DPO. I don't want to get too happy, because last month the chart also told me at one point that I had ovulated and it changed its mind some days later... But the pattern looks more normal this month, so maybe... That doesn't mean that I'm getting pregnant, but at least my body would be doing what it is supposed to do, and would probably save me from taking medicines... I will still see the OB, at the end FF is just an Internet monitor and I don't want to fall for "google medicine". The funniest thing is that in case I'm pregnant, the due date would be six days from my birthday... I still have to decide if that would be good or not. At the end I was expecting a big party to console myself from the fact that I'm hitting 30... It could be interesting to spend it in labor... A VBAC would be a wonderful birthday gift.

Let's keep going...

My OB's assistant called, and they want to do blood work on me on the third day of my next cycle. They will check the thyroid thing, too. I don't think it's too good that I always talk to the assistants... I guess it is if that means that the doctor is attending a delivery herself without abandoning the poor laboring woman... But, how do I know that? Anyway, I'll go for my appointment at the beginning of March (or whenever my cycle starts), and we'll see what happens. My problem is that I don't really want to take anything that would increase my chances of conceiving twins. Not that I don't think they are adorable, but with my history of preeclampsia, that would mean almost guaranteed bed rest, and without any family being able to come, that would be a huge problem. I don't want to leave my toddler... Wishful thinking, anyway, because for any chance of twins I need to get pregnant first. I should be ovulating right now, but I don't feel it happening. I used to, but I think I'm controlling and charting everything so much that I have forgotten how to read my body.
I'm realizing that I am focusing on the conception part of my next pregnancy... and at some point I should talk a little about the VBAC part and how I'm preparing for it. I will. Soon.

Yet again...

I can keep charting as much as I want, and I can keep postponing that visit to my OB as well, but that's not going to change the fact that I'm not getting pregnant. I got my period again today, to my disappointment. My own fault, I know. I also went to take the medical examination for my Green Card process, and the doctor told me that my thyroid gland looked swollen. I had thyroid blood work done in the Fall because I wasn't feeling well, and everything came back fine, but there was nothing swollen back then. I want to think that it may be the reason why I'm not getting pregnant. I guess I'll have to call my OB on Monday and have it checked, just in case. I'm not ready to consider anything else at this point. Let's start the new chart. Sigh.

Fed up

I'm mad. At myself. A couple of days ago I took a random pregnancy test. Just because. Of course it was negative. But a little nausea and a little sleepiness were enough to trigger my hopes. Apparently, and according to my temperatures and my chart, I haven't ovulated yet. Neither I did last month. I can believe that, or blame it on the lack of opportunities. Or think that maybe I'm not ovulating because of some happy reason... But that's not happening, and I will be disappointed once again. Little L sees babies and his face lights up... So does mine. When I see his.