After the hiatus

It's been a while since I last posted, but I didn't have any news of any kind. This is the first cycle we are really trying, and the OPK gave me positive reading on Friday. If we don't get pregnant this month, it will not be because we didn't try. So, now that I am done with the OPKs for at least fifteen days, I have to start the progesterone tomorrow. and I hate the thing. I forget it. I don't like popping orange little balls in my vagina. They turn all my underwear orange. They make my stomach upset, and give me gas problems way worse than the ones I had during my pregnancy. But I guess I have to keep doing it. I am not ready to lose another baby. This time it has to be ok.
Meanwhile, we are planning a trip to Mexico. In March. Supposedly I cannot travel until the fifteenth week, but I don't really care. I will ask. If it increases my chance of miscarrying, I will not go. But if they are just scared of me having any trouble in a foreign country without fancy American hospitals, I'm going. After all, I don't think I could be treated worse than I have been here until I found Dr S. And after a loooooong year, I really need a break. A palm tree. That's all I am asking for.
We'll see. About everything. Now to the "I think I have all kinds of pregnancy symptoms". I will test in ten days. Hopefully then, I will have a happy post.

I'm mad...and that's not good.

I don't think it's going to happen this month either. I'm 11 DPO, and everything seems good, temps are up, and I'm supposed to test in a week. But after a couple of days of crazy energy, the kind that makes you empty your closets and drawers to organize and tidy everything, I'm suddenly in a very bad mood. I snap easily, and little L is making me crazy. I run out of patience in about two minutes. That's usually part of my PMS. I either cry or scream, usually one month of each, so I guess I have a sad ovary and an angry one. At least I ovulated, so it appears that things are working again. It may have been that my body was messed up by the horrible IUD removal. I'll write about that another day.

Temps are staying high... hopes are up...

So, apparently I really ovulated. 5 DPO, my temperature is still rising, and now I have a Early Pregnancy Predictor with a green 35 on it. It doesn't mean I have a 35% chance of being pregnant, just that it matches the signs in other women's charts. Complicated, I don't need to get the technical part, I'm happy with just the results. And if they make a colorful chart, all the better. It even looks pretty. But the wait until March 13th, when I'm supposed to test, is going to be excruciating. And considering the fact that when I was pregnant with L, the pregnancy tests kept coming back negative until week six of the pregnancy... I may even be up for a longer wait. I need to do something to take my attention from this. I'll go back to yoga next week. Or maybe swimming would be a better idea... Some kind of physical activity that takes my mind out of chart world... And I have decided that from next week on, I'm going to set aside some time of my week to research about VBAC. And to post whatever I found here. Ina May, there I go...

Maybe this month?

According to my chart, I ovulated on the 22nd, which means I'm on 3DPO. I don't want to get too happy, because last month the chart also told me at one point that I had ovulated and it changed its mind some days later... But the pattern looks more normal this month, so maybe... That doesn't mean that I'm getting pregnant, but at least my body would be doing what it is supposed to do, and would probably save me from taking medicines... I will still see the OB, at the end FF is just an Internet monitor and I don't want to fall for "google medicine". The funniest thing is that in case I'm pregnant, the due date would be six days from my birthday... I still have to decide if that would be good or not. At the end I was expecting a big party to console myself from the fact that I'm hitting 30... It could be interesting to spend it in labor... A VBAC would be a wonderful birthday gift.